dReAmInG oF fAiRyTaLeS...

I heard this song today, for the first time in forever, and i fell in love with it all over again. It just brings back so many memories of HIM and all the regrets over the past things that have happened. *sigh.* Love is not easy; I guess it wouldn't be worth it if it was...but it sucks anyway. I have this gut feeling that I should try being in a relationship with him again, but I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do for either of us. I don't want to hurt him anymore than I already have, and I don't want to make the whole in my heart any deeper. Through all the uncertainties I still find myself wondering what it would be like to start over with him; I can see the bigger picture, the fairytale, with him. Yet, something stops me from making my dreams a reality. My favorite lines in this song go "I think I need a bottle with a genie in it/ Here's my wish list"..."If I had one wish/ we'd be best friends/love would never end/ it would just begin..." If i had one wish/ you'd be my boo/ promise to love you/ trust me, i'll trust you." If only I really could make a wish and instantly have all that I dreamed for life would be easier. What do you do when you realize the frog that you kissed was actually a prince, but before he could transform you tossed him back into the pond?