dReAmInG oF fAiRyTaLeS...

Life is full of ups and downs and lately that's exactly what I feel like my emotions have been; a rollercoaster. My life is just on this turbulent ride that seems to have no end in sight. Its like I know as I'm doing things that it isn't the best choice, but I find myself doing it anyway. I don't think I've had one day in the last 3 years that wasn't in some way stressful or emotionally taxing. I really would like some peace in my life, but I doubt I'll be getting that anytime soon. In the meantime...what in the world am I supposed to do with myself?!? That is the question of the day. What do you do when life knocks you down? The cliche answer would be to brush yourself off and get back up again right? But, what do most people do when they get a swift kick in the ass? They crumble to the floor, cry out in agony, stay down & protect/cover themselves in the hopes that the next lash wont her as much. I guess thats what I've been doing lately. I got knocked down, broke down, cried and surrounded myself in a bubble of indifference, false confidence and loosened the ties of personal relationships in the hopes that the next kick wouldn't hurt as much. The only problem with this plan is...it doesnt work. There isn't enough bubble wrap, drugs or alcohol in the world to shield yourself from all the trials of life becuase no matter what you do life will always hurt. Its not going to be perfect; even fairy tales have problems to overcome.