dReAmInG oF fAiRyTaLeS...

The other day ,while watching an episode of HOUSE, I had another aha! moment. During this episode Doctors Chase & Cameron, who are a engaged, were arguing about wether or not Dr. Cameron should dispose of her late husbands sperm since they're about to be married. Dr. Chase thinks it would be like closing a chapter in Dr. Camerons past and showing faith in their relationship, while Dr. Cameron is afraid to let go and destroy the last part of her husband- someone she tried so hard to save but couldn't.
In the end Chase relents and comes to understand Cameron's POV and feelings and tells her not to destroy the sperm and they go on to have a fairy tale wedding. However, before the happy ending can take place, Dr. Cameron seeks out Dr. House as her sounding board for working through what to do about her situation. When talking about her fiance she says that Chase has a "romantic view of love that reality can't compete with."

I froze when I heard that line. It was like that one little phrase was directed at me and I knew instantly that I too, like Dr. Chase, had a view of love that most people don't think can exist. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. Although I'm leaning toward a mixture of both. Its not a good thing when your expectations are to the extreme and you dismiss anyone who doesn't meet your critera exactly even if theirs a spark of interest. Yet, its a good thing because you believe that true love can conquer anything and if it's meant to be then it will be. So, the suppostion is that to have successful relationships a person needs some romantic visions of love but also be realistic in those ideals. However, the question of the day is...by letting go of an extra ordinary view of what love is are you lowering your standards?

5/23/09

In the middle of the night. When all is quiet. My heart tells me you're the one; that we were meant to be. That I've been in denial about my love for you. But when I wake up, daylight brings uncertainty. So which do i believe? The clear black of night or the bright gleam of day? My head or my heart? Not sure if the lack of peace is from unfinished business or business that I don't want finished. [Life is annoyingly complicated at 2am...]

5/21/09

[In no particular order...]

Jordin Sparks- Battlefield
Taylor Swift- Hey Stephen
Ciara- Never Ever
Nick Lachey- All In My Head
Demi Lovato- Don't Forget
Daughtry- No Suprise
Jeremiah- Birthday Sex
The Ting Tings- That's Not My Name
Kelly Clarkson- I Do Not Hook Up
Paula Abdul- I'm Just Here For The Music

- I guess the first 10 I could think of is good enough. If you haven't heard any of these you should check them out, because I think they're awesome!

I just got in from partying with some friends a BAR Norfolk! It was my first time there and it was definitely an experience. lol. I thought I would have more fun than I did, but it just wasn't my cup of tea tonite I guess. The music was pretty bad, lots of country and rock-not that i don't love that music too, but not for dancing at a club. There were only a select few songs that were dance-worthy. But, the real kicker was the guys at the club. They were outrageous, to say the least.

I only danced with two guys, but this one guy was crazy. He seemed harmless when he asked me to dance, but geeze he got a little wild for my taste. I don't mind the grinding and all that but this dude freaking picked me up & spun me around in the middle of the dance floor! Extremely embarrassing! I didn't even know him, it was a little strange.

I talked to him a little while, it seemed like forever, after we danced. He practically told me his life story & asked me a dozen questions. He was seriously trying to get with me. He asked me on a date within like the first 5 minutes of talking to him! And He texted & called me just now; like 30 minutes after I left the club(i didn't answer)! Seriously dude!?!?

Not smooth at all. Which would have been fine except I'm not interested. He wasn't attractive to me at all. He was nice enough just not someone I want to date. Lets just say, that wasn't an experience I want to repeat. If only unattractive, desperate dudes are gonna hit on me then I might as well stay home! I'm hoping the next club experience is wayyy better than this one.

Today my cousin's brought over there new chihuahua puppies! Can you say ADORABLE?! They are 16 weeks old. A boy and a girl [who are nameless at the moment]! As soon as I laid eyes on them I wanted to scoop them up and runaway with them. lol. Especially the little boy because he is exactly the puppy I want for myself some day. My dream puppy is a male chihuahua with black/tan/white markings, and my cousins new "baby" is the manifestation of my ideal dog! If only I could have one now; countdown to college graduation [when I can get a puppy]!

I sincerely believe that colleges should allow students to have pets. Yes, animals can be messy but so can PEOPLE! If my school offered the opportunity for pets to be allowed in campus housing I would jump at it- even for a fee! It would be well worth the money for all the benefits of having a pet with you can bring. I know my days would be much brighter if I had a sweet baby waiting for me at the end of the day. If students were more responsible and acted like the adults they claim to be, I think many more colleges would have a pets allowed policy. Although I don't think it would be ideal for dorms, campuses with apartments, like the one I live in, should accommodate students' pets. Until then I guess I'll have to be patient and wait for graduation, or do as my neighbors & hide their dog!